Little things about me.

      I realized today that I have never shared a very significant part of my life with me readers. I am talking about my love for babies, not only that but my desire to become a midwife. I have always wanted to go into the medical field, but never really knew what area. I knew that I couldn't handle working in a hospital (because of the history I've had with hospitals) but I did know that God was calling me to some how work in a medical position. On top of that I also knew that God was calling me to the mission field. So what better thing to bring to a foreign country that midwifery?

And that was when I started to look in to the ways of becoming a midwife and also going to births to really find out if this was meant for me. So far I have only been to two births, but both have reaffirmed to me that this is where God is calling me.

In February I was able to witness the birth of my little sister. My Mom had her at home at 43 years old  with a 15 year break between her last pregnancies and this one. Many people thought she was crazy, and many people agreed that she could do it. And she did, I now have a perfectly healthy little two and a half month old sister with no problems. 

If Mom had gone to the hospital they would have done a C-section. But we know that there was never a need for that. Woman have had healthy pregnancies and births for centuries. This is what I want to continue. Hopefully in 5 years I will be practicing as a midwifes assistant and then hopefully work as a full fledged midwife. And who knows....maybe I will be practicing in Africa someday with woman that really need my help. 

   I really love babies and I love helping woman give birth. But most of all I love think as I watch the miracle of birth "Thank God that this baby wasn't aborted". So I will not only be working as a midwife but also I am going to be active in stopping the abortion of children.  What's your calling?
  

Don't judge me.

Today I was convicted. Why? How? My Pastor preached on Romans 2. And mainly on judging and being judged. Have you ever sat back and asked youself how much you really judge people? I have and did this morning. The worst thing is that I was doing it right in the middle of service. And then I heard the sermon. Even though I don't act in the sin I was judging I was acting worse. Pride is already and issue in my life but today it was worse. I thought that my influence on someones life would make them change. I wasn't giving the relatonship to God, and lettng him act in this friends life. I thought I had all the answers and was far better than this person. I was so decieved.

  In Romans 2 it says this:
   "You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. Now we know that God’s judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. So when you, a mere human being, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God’s judgment? Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance?"

Could it get any clearer? So, what have I learned today? I have learned and have been convicted of the fact that I am nothing without Christ, that He is the judge of sinners and I am not and that I am no better than that missguided sinner in church today. I am a missguided sinner.

Caught up in too much.

       Yesterday I finished my last debate tournament of the year. It was a bitter sweet moment when I walked out of the awards ceremony. I was happy, but felt like I hadn't given it everything I could have. After every award ceremony I am tired and emotionally drained but it was worse last night because it was the last of the year. I came home a wreck! Then I opened my bible and read these verses. 


 "Why do you complain, Jacob?
   Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD;
   my cause is disregarded by my God”?
 Do you not know?
   Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
   the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
   and his understanding no one can fathom.
 He gives strength to the weary
   and increases the power of the weak.
 Even youths grow tired and weary,
   and young men stumble and fall;
 but those who hope in the LORD
   will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
   they will run and not grow weary,
   they will walk and not be faint."
~Isaiah 40:27-31


"Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say,  or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
2 Cor 12: 6-10


I am always amazed at how God's word refreshes me and puts me back on track. 

It's a crazy but wonderful life.

I am the type of girl that doesn't care about getting dirty.
I am the type of girl that debates and knows my mind.
I am the type of girl that will stand close to my friends.
I am the type of girl that doesn't like her brownies with her ice cream.
I am the type of girl that reads Alexandre Dumas and then reads Nicholas Sparks.
I am the type of girl that listens to anything from Journey to Usher and then to Steven Curtis Chapman.
I am the kind of girl that would much rather wear pants than a skirt.
I am the kind of girl that would much rather go shoot guns and ride an ATV than go to a dance.

I am the kind of girl that loves to dress up when the occasion comes.
I am the kind of girl that loves baseball better than any sport.

Thats just who I am.

Don't live with regrets.

    I have been reminded lately of how special life is and that we should never take it for granite. A woman down the street from us lost her Husband on Wednesday to Cancer. It reminded me of the regrets I live with everyday and how much I wish I could change it.
    My word of  wisdom for the day is live your life in the moment. Make sure that the decisions you make will never make you regret. Life is to precious for broken relationships and strife. Make sure the people around you know that you love them. Take every spare minute and spend with with your family and friends.
    I have had to go through regret and hurt, all because I didn't realize how precious life really is. Make this day the start of a life with out regrets.
     Take it from someone who knows. Don't miss out on the moments that matter the most. 

A day in the life...

Impacts

    Have you ever had one family that impacts you in so many ways you can't count them?  I have one family in my life like that. They have made so many things possible for me that I would have never been able to do. You may know who I am talking about and you may not know, to me I think they are under rated. The Kjeldgaards are a testimony to me that anything is possible.
   Many of you don't know that without them I wouldn't be able to compete in Speech and Debate. Three years ago they decided to use one of their annual carnivals to raise a school fund for my siblings and me. Without this fund I wouldn't be doing the things I am doing now. The experiences I have been given I will never forget. And I will always be grateful to them for this.
  The other thing I am really blessed by is the wonderful friendships I have with them. Their two oldest kids and I have been friends for years and our friendships just keep getting stronger. It is a huge blessing. They are apart of the reason that I am so grounded in what I believe.
   Another way they have impacted me is how they have stood by me and encouraged me but also exhorted me to be a stronger christian and to give it all to God. I know that I can always talk to them about problems and issues I need help with.
   Every single Kjeldgaard has impacted me in so many ways. I am so blessed to have them in my life.