Late night....again.

Okay, So I have realized that almost all of my post are done late at night. Right now it is currently 12:24 in the morning. Is that weird to most of you? Probably not. The real reason I write so late at night is because it is at these times when the house is quiet and peaceful. I can think and not be interrupted, I can contemplate and not have someone trying to persuade me to something else, I can be at peace with the world even if it is for a moment.

But tonight I find myself thinking of something altogether average and almost trivial. I have been thinking about 'Sleepless in Seattle'. I just have to say that it is by far my favorite chick-flick ever!! There I got it out of my system, say what you want but I won't differ. My main point in thinking about it is thinking about how so many women want a man like Sam(Tom Hanks). To the women folk of this country/world, we tend to be in constant search of the one perfect and emotional guy that will totally understand us. Ha! For you women out there that believe you will find that guy...get over it. He isn't out there. And unfortunately no matter how much I love 'sleepless in seattle' I have to realize that too. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could all have that fairy tale romance? Where we wouldn't have to do any work to keep the relationship going? I think it would. But that won't happen.

Sorry if you feel totally blasted and aimed at by this. I use this blog to vent and talk about issues on my mind. But also don't blow this off, think about the expectations you have of men.

Life

Life is one of those things that can be confusing, fun, crazy, chaotic, wonderful, a blessing and so much more. I could spend hours telling you about the little things that I love about life, like how I love sitting in the middle of a huge field of flowers with not a soul around and a classic book or even just sitting there listening to God's nature. Or maybe sitting talking with a best friend for hours about the things we are most passionate about. And baking when I am stressed, or sipping a cup of coffee while I catch up with friends. My list can go on.

Unfortunately, for the past few weeks I have forgotten about those little things. I have been too caught up in the crazy part of life. So focused on making sure it is all perfect, all well planned, all how I want it. I got stressed and paranoid. And showed a front so no one would know.

But a few days ago I got a wake up call from God in the form of chaos. My personal life was a mess. It got to the point that I just sat there and begged God to stop everything from going so fast.

Have you ever felt like there was just too much drama in your life? That's how I feel. Way too much drama. Sometimes I just wish I didn't have emotions at all.

So the lesson I have learnt is that this life is not my own, that God is fully in control. And also when it comes to all these emotions I feel, I need to remember to wait and be patient. Realizing this has given me so much peace.

My constant prayer.

Oh God, what do I have to offer? What is my life? Hold me lord and never let go! Save me from myself, give me the strength to carry on.

Do you hear my constant cry?
Can you see these tears?
Please, take my hand and guide me.
Show me your eternal love.

My favorite hymn

On Sunday I was so blessed to be reminded of the words to my favorite hymn. It always amazes me how this one hymn can continue to remind me of how wonderful of a God I serve! Enjoy....

When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

It is well (it is well)
With my soul (with my soul)
It is well, it is well with my soul

My sin O the bliss of this glorious thought
My sin not in part but the whole
Is nailed to the cross and
I bear it no more paraise the Lord, praise the Lord,
O my soul

It is well (it is well)
With my soul (with my soul)
It is well, it is well with my soul

And Lord haste the day
When my faith shall be sight
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound and
The Lord shall descend
Even so it is well with my soul

"I shall not be a fool"....

"For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but [now] I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me [to be], or [that] he heareth of me.

And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.

For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong."

2 Corinthians 12:6-10

Late nights, early mornings and coffee.

Officially my favorite place in the house is our barista machine.

It is very nice to get up in the morning, make a coffee, and sit down to read the news. I know it sounds like such a small thing to enjoy. But it combines two of my favorite things. Coffee is the key to getting me in a good mood.



Coffee starts me in the morning and keeps me going late at night when I am swamped with school, speech and debate.

And after I have had my coffee I enjoy spending time writing. But I am one of those weird people that sits there and writes on paper with a pen. =) For me it is so soothing to contemplate thoughts of importance to me. Most people wouldn't want to read what I have written, but I love it and it is like therapy for me.



A blissful day for me would be spent with coffee, writing, and reading up on news and important issues.

What is your blissful day?